May 17th, 2021

I’ve been diving deeply into embodied social change & the messages I’ve been conditioned to uphold as truth. I’ve been sitting with (sometimes spiraling with) all the ways my body holds stories that keep me constricted & often complacent. I’m noticing an attitude of interrogating my body instead of holding my body. Accepting defeat instead of reimagining. Looking outward for a quick fix instead of feeling the rhythm of my own heart.
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What do my actions & my habits uphold? Do they uphold defeatist notions of powerlessness & disconnection? How I show up to my present moment experience either reinforces or interrupts larger systems of dominance & harm. Systems that want me to feel defeated & disconnected. What would it look like to hold myself from a place of curiosity, patience & reimagining?
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For a long time I thought the yogic practice of pratipaksha bhavana (cultivating the opposite) was a way of bypassing situations that needed my attention. I thought it was the whole “I like the light, but not the heat” of spirituality. But it’s not a teaching of distraction or diluting. Lately it has been a vital practice for helping me when I feel stuck. A practice of creating new neural pathways that support a robust nervous system & a capacity to embody possibility in order to reimagine a better world.
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What story are you tangled up in right now? What do you know to be true?

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